Goodbye 2007. Hellooo 2008

As the year draws to an end, i've decided to put this blog on a hiatus of sorts. i'm not yet ready to completely end it - yet find i have nothing to say. There is nothing D/s, sex, dating, love or anything remotely interesting going on in my life right now - not even vanilla...only work. And who wants to hear about that? Certainly not me!

So...we - the blog and i - will rest for a bit. This quiet time in my life is not easy for me to bear, i assure you (i'm desperately lonely these days), but i hope to come out of it a better woman in all ways.

Please stay in touch - thisgirlsmail at aol dot com is where i eagerly (and hungrily) await any and all emails.

Thank you for everything.

with love
this girl

Telltale Signs

He kissed her deeply, pushing his knee between her thighs with not just a little force. she moaned into his mouth and returned his kisses with passion. her body felt on fire, deep need somewhere inside of her growing and spreading - she wanted to force him to touch her.

No force was necessary as he slowly removed her clothing, one piece at a time. she felt no embarrassment, even though it was the first time he would see her completely naked and she couldn't wait to be without clothing - would make her more available.

He laid her down, put her hands above her head, told her not to move them and began kissing, licking, tasting and touching every inch of her body. At one point, he rolled her to to stomach and began the same inspection, if you will, of her back. she whimpered a protest when he spread her bottom and his only response was to swat her. That did nothing to help the madness of it all and she pushed back against his hands for another.

"STAY STILL" he commanded

It was so hard to do so-his hands felt like fire upon her skin. He, being fully clothed, was in no hurry and that made it 'worse'

Finally, he had her on her back, he was on her left side and once again began to touch and kiss his way all over her body. He draped himself over her stomach with his back towards her and began to pull the lips of her cunt wide, touching and inspecting that very private and at the time, very wet part of her. Light flicks over her clitoris as well as a smack or two against her cunt made her bring her arms down - she needed to touch him back, needed to feel him.

His reaction was to harshly pull her arms back over her head, threatening to tie her up if she didn't behave. He kissed her roughly over and over while beginning to grind himself into her.

He pulled away and laughed at her need. His eyes, dark with desire and lust, met hers - which were begging that she be taken and used for His pleasure.

He refused.

He then began his torture - that slow agonising torture of sweet pleasure until she was screaming his name and rutting herself against his hand.

she was 20 yrs old and a virgin. He was 37 yrs old and married with four children.
He never fully took her but taught her all about pleasure and all about how she was to serve his body.

she didn't call herself a submissive then, but looking back, she (who is this girl) realizes that there were some definite telltale signs of the slut that was deep within her.

It's Beginning to Look Like Christmas

My! but i love this time of year.

Tie me up and put me under the Christmas tree! i dare You!

LOL!

Wow

i had such a good time tonight!!!

Winter, Part II

M:e commented that many people find this time of the year hard and i think she' completely correct. i've never dreaded winter before- and am truly trying to fight the 'down' feelings. i love the holiday season and have been enjoying it more this year than last - music, cards, presents, decorating..some things to distract my mind! i've also decided two things that will impact my life in a greater way.

1. Every time i buy a new pair of shoes, the shoebox they come in must be used for the next Christmas time. These boxes will then be sent with the international organization that will deliver them to children all over the world. This is a non-negotiable contract with myself. i'm actually excited about this and already have four old boxes saved and some little things bought.

2. i am going to stop complaining all.the.time. i'm getting sick of myself whining! Can Y/you see how desperately this girl needs a good sound spanking? Help! Aren't there some disciplinarians around somewhere? Someone who might be willing to listen to all this girls offenses and petty problems and then spank me soundly - putting to right all that seems out of whack! Hmm....might have to seriously look into that.

3. Research and reading about the lifestyle hasn't gone as well as i had hoped because of some computer problems - which hopefully are resolved for the time being. i'm looking forward to moving ahead in that area.

Small steps. But steps at the very least.

Winter

Winter is upon us and i dread it. Last winter wasn't a good one - though no one really knew that - and i fear this one. Last winter my Sir's love and instructions kept me going - kept me focused and feeling loved. i am so grateful for that - because it made a difference.

This winter, things are a bit different and i am trying, still, to find my way. i think i'll get there but have low moments (like tonight).

i need a good spanking followed by some tender touches and a warm embrace.

email

for anonymous and others who might want the title of the book
feel free to email

thisgirlsmail at aol dot com.

thanks

They're everywhere

Last night i was given the privledge of waiting on two women who were accompanied by their Men and i am quite certain that they were both submissive and i'm also quite certain that they knew i was too.

One came in early in the evening and the other as the store was about to close. It was a delightful thing and i'm very glad that i was able to help.