Again with the crazy libido

So i'm at the point in whatever stage of life this is that with almost every Man i see, i wonder what He's like in bed. AND i wonder how His hands would feel on my skin. That is SO high school, isn't it? i mean honestly! i'm a grown woman who should be in control of her own sex drive a bit, not drooling at every Man she sees....well, almost every Man that is.

And do Y/you think that Someone could tell my delicate pink bits that in order to stay dry FOR ONCE everything must just cool off and relax and stop thinking about sex and being used and how it feels and the amazing feel of a Man deep within...

(yeah, that's helping :rolls eyes:)

Some time off

Because my primary job has a decent benefit package and they are kind-hearted as well, i get a paid week between Christmas and New Year's. Around Sept of this year i was already looking forward to the time off and now that it's hear - i can say it's delicious! i still will work my secondary job but that will only be two nights this week. How lovely is that?


So i've determinded to get a few things accomplished around this house that have been let go - one of which is cleaning and oh!this place seems to me that it's in shambles (it's not really - it's just that i have very, very high standards when it comes to the cleaniness and tidyness of my home) i'm actually looking forward to the work -it's nice to give the brain a small break and allow the body to take over in comforting and very natural type chores.

i also have a lot of reading planned and am very excited about that and have tomorrow pegged as laundry and movie day, and once i'm home from the laundry i plan to stay put watching many movies and just being still.

And last, but certainly not least, i will be going over every command i know (kneeling, all fours, etc) and practicing them over and over - hoping to keep 'in shape'


This has certainly been the best Christmas Ever!

His pleasure and panties

Mr. Egghead mentioned in a comment to a previous post that He hoped that were i serving Someone, His pleasure would be my consideration instead of my own - i believe i was lamenting about my raging libdio(which is still flying strong and..um..welll more on that another time::blush:;). To be honest, i truly agreed with the comment and find that when i'm with Someone, that IS my goal and my own pleasure really does come second or not at all - depends on the Person, mood etc. Don't get me wrong: sexual pleasure is amazing and were i on total restriction, i think i'd lose my mind; however, for whatever reason, HIS pleasure is so much more fulfilling and amazing to me. For instance, when i was married, i didn't orgasm with my ex at first...maybe the second or third time (in one um...'session') but it took quite a while for me to be able to orgasm with him(which, by the way, is the most powerful thing i've ever felt!). And sometimes, depending on our schedules or moods or ability - once was it....and i hadn't orgasmed at all. And honestly, and i mearn really and truly honestly, it didn't matter to me. The fact that he had, and was satisfied and was happy made me so fulfilled and happy. i kid you not. So though i have to care for things myself at present, when i am once again with Somone, i will be more than thrilled to see that His pleasure is reached before mine and is more important.

And the other thing is that i rarely wear panties. i was forbidden to do so with T and continue that practice to now, but sometimes i feel a little rebellious and think that i want to wear a matching set to look pretty (and it does look so pretty) and i love the way it feels and that lasts for about three days until i'm finally about to rip them off cause i can't stand feeling so restricted any more! LOL so much for matching sets! but all that to say that i know that those who don't understand nor practice this lifestyle don't understand or appreciate, for the most part, how being told i was not allowed to wear panties, because all of my holes needed to be available at any given time and working through that very awkward feeling at first is now so much a part of me. To tell me that i can't wear them, no matter what else i'm wearing and no matter the temperature outside and i really won't fight you...but force me to wear them...and you'll have a nice sweet slave for about three days until whiney girl comes along telling you have uncomfortable they are and can't i pllllleeasssssseeee take them offfffff????!!!!????

Isn't life interesting?

Life is Precious, Life is Sweet

Incredibly, in the not so good way, this Christmas season has seen three people that meant something to me pass away. One was an Uncle, one was a former Pastor's wife and one was a slave. It's made me stop a bit and take stock of life and maybe how much more sweet i should view it -not that i'm ho-hum about the whole living bit but....

So in looking back this year, i've taken personal stock of all the people who have invested into my life - no matter how great or small and realized how blessed i truly am. Even in the darkest of times, not so long ago, there were those who loved and cared for me and that was a gift of great proportions.

This year, i want to invest in others lives just as much. i want to remember, no matter what, that life IS precious and sweet and that i am priviledged to have lived, thus far, a really fantastic life.

So

MERRY CHRISTMAS

to one and all.

Thank Y/you for being part of my life.

Enjoy the holidays!!!!

The less stress...

...the higer my libido goes. Do you think anyone's has exploded from sexual need and tension?

i thought this thing was supposed to cool down as i got older, not get more..um...urgent. And believe me, it was never very low to begin with.

What's a girl to do???

Sometimes...it's just for me

i was with some friends the other evening and bought five pieces of lingerie. These were not exspensive pieces but they were very pretty, three of them being baby doll with matching panties, one in pink, one in black and one in red. Very pretty, very sexy.

One of the girls asked me who i was buying the stuff for...and i replied for me.

She then proceeded to inform everyone that i must be holding out on them and must have a Man and that's why i was buying the lingerie.

Now truth be told, if indeed a Man was in my house/bed/life, i would indeed make sure that i had plenty of lingerie if He liked it, but truth also be told, i was buying those pieces purely for me.

because sometimes, when the quietness gets a little too much to bear, i enjoy a bubble bath, lotion from head to toe and slip on something lacey and sexy. It makes me feel very feminine and pretty. i typically end up kneeling at some point - in that lingerie, reminding me always that even though i am wearing all that lovley lace and satin to make me feel nice, ultimately i would love to have a Man rip that stuff right off of me! (mmm....can you say fantasy???)

but sometimes, it's nice to be nice to yourself, no matter your position in life and love.

Now please excuse me, i have a bath to take and some lace to slip on...which colour should i pick?