Life is crazy, life is good

Well mostly good - i have nothing, at present, about which to complain. That in itself is fantastic, is it not?

In these days of non-use and not being owned, i'm finding more about myself than i realized. i have really stepped back from everything, almost becoming a loner - and that it was so easy to do is kinda creepy - finding out just who thisgirl is and what makes her tick. Oh, i've known for years who my true inner woman was and i'm really glad to say that i do like me, but in these months of being just..um..alone, i realize who i am more deeply.

i must confess that at times, the loneliness gets to be too much- i mean i really don't want to be alone the rest of my life. Today, i had a conversation with my family and i mentioned that should i ever marry (again), i would not wish to argue and have drama because i realize how intensely precious it is to be with someone who loves you and wants you. A family member kinda mocked me in this, saying that of course W/we would argue and i was silly to think otherwise. Ok, i'll agree, in part. What i was trying to get accross to them is that when you don't have something - it becomes infinitely more dear to you than those who do and while arguing and such is part of life, the manner or method of the argument, for me, would be completely different now than it was when i was younger.

And then in a completely different manner of subject. i need sex. i need hot, passionate, take me down and use me hard kind of sex. The kind that leaves me sore and all flushed and pink all over and panting hard.

And there is NO arguing about that!!