Sweet Surrender
Some time ago, M:e posted on her blog a post on surrender and while i'm not going to steal her ideas or thoughts- it did make me pause for a bit to think about surrender.
i find that i love the struggle to surrender. It's kind of a funny thing - i KNOW i'm not going to 'win' and i know that surrendering to Him is truly what i long for, but i fight it. i struggle against it as if it were a rope surrounding my heart and soul. i hem and hawl about giving in...i fight it all in my mind and try to rationalize why not surrendering is best.
And then, finally, giving in...such sweet release, such intense pleasure of the mind,such a peace fills my heart.
i'm not sure why the struggle and why i hold on to the struggle for as long as i do, but i sure do know the flood of peace and serenity that comes when i surrender. surrender my will to His, my actions to His, my obedience to His rules and commands.
And this is something that for the next Man in my life, should there ever be one (one can hope!), will be even more intense for me.
i honestly can't wait.
i find that i love the struggle to surrender. It's kind of a funny thing - i KNOW i'm not going to 'win' and i know that surrendering to Him is truly what i long for, but i fight it. i struggle against it as if it were a rope surrounding my heart and soul. i hem and hawl about giving in...i fight it all in my mind and try to rationalize why not surrendering is best.
And then, finally, giving in...such sweet release, such intense pleasure of the mind,such a peace fills my heart.
i'm not sure why the struggle and why i hold on to the struggle for as long as i do, but i sure do know the flood of peace and serenity that comes when i surrender. surrender my will to His, my actions to His, my obedience to His rules and commands.
And this is something that for the next Man in my life, should there ever be one (one can hope!), will be even more intense for me.
i honestly can't wait.
posted by this girl at Wednesday, January 28, 2009
3 Comments:
I always love these little peeps inside your mind. For me, I hate the struggle, and it usually only happens when I'm not emotionally in a good place over something outside of M and I. Surrendering is often what makes the emotional stuff just evaporate....so maybe that's the reason I try not to fight it.
love and hugs xxx
Resistance and opposition to some extent are completely normal and healthy for women. You do that because you need to be convinced that your dom is strong enough to protect you. If he cannot handle you, how could he be strong enough to protect you from the dangers of the world?
It is healthy and natural genetic female behavior.
just a note to see how you are
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