Where has the time gone

i realized that five years ago, i started this blog. Sometimes i go back and read what i have posted and it amazes me how far away from my true desires life has taken me. Where i am today is not anywhere close to where i thought i would be, but alas, sometimes life does not go the way one wishes and we must adapt.

Yesterday i almost put on my cuffs...the black leather is so soft and i well remember how the lock clicks when one walks or crawls. Such is the stuff of loveliness. But i could only caress them and smell their wonderful leather smell before putting them back....and later on i dreamed of them.

It is those kinds of things that i think i miss the most. The little things. The big scenes are wonderful, dont get me wrong, but the little things...the perfect outfit, the cuffs...sitting on the slave mat, the commands, etc etc...those i miss.

But life has not granted me this right now and i must adapt.

i am sure, however, that one day He will find me.